Today is a hard day! I want this to work. Blogging, my TpT store, anything so that I can be home and teach my girls. They are such smart ladies! They have such WONDERFUL teachers! However, their teachers are limited in what they can do for my girls by the curriculum the school uses and the number and behavior of the students in class with my daughters. Those limitations are hard for me to accept as the girls’ mother. I, of course, care about the other children in their classes, but not as much as I care about mine. I KNOW they have two of the best teachers in their building and in our district! I also know that if I could have them at home I could tailor their learning to the best strategies, not just for instruction, but for their own learning abilities.

I am selling some things on TpT, each month goes up. I am making myself write this. But, as I get emails telling me about this expensive class or that expensive course on how to monetize your blog and I check and recheck my sales, I struggle with knowing what to invest and what growth is enough or not enough. If nothing changes financially for my family I cannot stay home with my daughters and I will have to continue to teach in a school that often is at odds with my core beliefs and principles. That is a hard reality. And when I feel stretched as thin as I can go and I am still not gaining followers or getting views and the growth of my sales seems slow, I get discouraged!

That is where I am today. Praying for success, struggling for growth and striving for faith!