Isn’t it amazing that something that sounds so easy like “Be still and know that I am God.” can be SO HARD!

Lately I feel like I am drowning in a sea of noise. There is actual noise from my lovely and rambunctious and adjusting to a laid back summer schedule daughters. This noise should make me smile and laugh and enter into their imaginary, sunshiney world! However, due to the other noises I’m NOT! Inside my head there is SO MUCH noise. There is unbelievable unrest at work that weighs heavily, even though I am a teacher and I am on summer break! There is unsettledness in my husband’s job as another head coach leaves and a new one is hired and the possibility for getting the job he actually wants at work hangs just out of reach, but possible once again! There is noise that counting calories, and entering EVERY MORSEL that passes my lips is hard and weight loss is slow! There is noise to get up and work out and I don’t to, the girls were up again last night during yet another thunder storm!

I crave the peaceful surrender of being still and knowing that God is God! But even that craving feels like more pressure and more noise! So, I am pressing on. I am trying to just breathe and enjoy the girls! I keep entering EVERY MORSEL I eat and I get my workouts done whether it is early or late. I pray and I try to sing praises! And I wait. There are no answers at work. I can’t always keep up. All I can do is the task right in front of me, because lifting my eyes beyond the next step might just crush me! And I pray that somehow, I’ll find the faith to look up, not to see what’s coming, but past that to my help that comes from the hills.

Maybe God’s help comes from the top of a hill so that looking up hills won’t seem so daunting or hard. So that hills will come to mean sustenance, safety and rescue. If you have any thoughts on how to grow in being still, I’d love to hear them!